I haven't had a wonderful birthday in a long time.. but I think this one will be better I feel like I've changed a lot lately and realized a lot of things... I'm starting to feel like I have some control over my life now, instead of giving that control to someone who doesn't give a shit. I'm learning how to let go.. one meaningless situation at a time. And I'm not letting anyone.. now, or ever again define who I am. Especially to the point that I don't recognize myself any more. It's so depressing to forget about me. I think things are clearing up quite nicely.